Neither One of Us Wants to Be the First to Say Goodbye (Farewell My Love Goodbye)

He promised me he would only ride during the daytime, he would always wear his helmet and he would stay on the back country rural streets not far from our suburban home.

And he was a promise-keeper, a man of his word- which is why as daylight began to recede and night started to fall, a certainty that something wasn’t right began to pervade my consciousness.

There was nothing to do but wait-it-out. I wasn’t about to call or text him. He was on a motorcycle.

When it was officially dark outside, I became another page of the book I was reading that leisurely Sunday afternoon and thought to myself,’ we will have to have a serious talking here this motorcycle thing again.’ In spite of the fact that he told me how great he seemed when he was out “taking a spin, ” it was starting to feel like a really bad idea to me.

Maybe I could talk him into a barge or a airplane ski, or perhaps he had been able to take over golf.

I no sooner had this thought, when our 17 -year-old son came to me and said, “Mom you have to come to the door. There’s a police officer who wants to speak with you”

A few weeks later I was faced with the greatest challenge of my writing job- writing and delivering the eulogy of our friend, the parent of my five children and the truest boy I’ve ever known…

…You know how sometimes you’ll meet person or persons and think to yourself or even tell everyone around you, “Oh my gosh, he was the nicest man you could ever want to meet! ” Well, That wasn’t my husband.

I’m not saying he wasn’t nice, of course he was; he was nice and get nicer with age, as men tend to do. I’m just saying that “niceness” wasn’t the most overruling quality “hed left” you with when “youve met” him for the first time. He wasn’t out there trying to bowl you over with his charm.

My husband was so much more than that.

He was good.

In fact, In all “peoples lives” I never met a human who was, very simply, more good.

Because he wasn’t licking you up one side and down the other, blinding you with his sparkle, it would be so easy for an obtuse or confused person to overlook or even miss altogether the substantive qualities that stimulated him one of the most significant men many of us will ever know.

And I … I had the privilege to be his wife and the mother of his children, I worked for him( although I’m sure if he’s read this right now, he’s saying my work claim “is debatable! ”) I continued his home, I maintained his kids, I maintained his bank accounts and I kept his nerve. What all of that provided me with was a close-up, behind-the-scenes conceal camera belief. A front row seat like no other, into the way this humankind genuinely conducted himself in every facet of their own lives. I never once in all those years realized that man’s character, his integrity or his commitment waver.

And trust me I watched hard.

When I started dating him,( “were in” both 18) to use an antiquated phrase, I “set my cap for him” and I’ll merely admit right here and now, he was entirely out of my league. He was extremely handsome, remarkably intelligent and possessed a confident James Dean swagger that was both indefinable and irresistible. We had a large group of friends who witnessed this romance unfolding and forecasted “Uh-oh this ends badly for the girl.” “She’s bound to get hurt.” “She’s way out of her depth.”

The piece they hadn’t reckoned on was that, oddly enough, this guy had a penchant for curly red-headed daughters. On our first date, we parked out in front of the lakes on the campus of LSU and gazed shoulder to shoulder straight ahead at the water talking about life. He had such a reputation as a renegade with a tough guy exterior that I decided to dig deep, “Do you love ANYBODY? ” I asked.

He seemed taken aback- surprised and said, “I adoration my grandmother and my mom.”

Some little part of this 18 -year-old girl was enchanted and enthralled by the raw glimpse of vulnerability and think, “Ooooh … I envision I can work with this! ” There’s nothing that a teenage daughter enjoys more than a tough outer shell with a soft, sweet center.

Ask any M& M you know!

A few years later, when we were married, there was a bit of a snafu on our bridal day and the cousin who was supposed to transport my Groom’s beloved aforementioned grandmother to our bridal dropped the ball somehow. After the event was over and we were driving away from the reception, he drove to the end of the pull-through, laid his head on the steering wheel and started to cry. I was, of course, alarmed as any new bride covered in hopes and rice and future nightmares would be.

When I asked him “whats wrong”, he said, “I just never imagined I wouldn’t be with my grandmother on my wedding period. Can we go to her? ”

But of course we could.

So, he in a white tux, me in a long dress and veil, looking like little bride and groom figurines snatched right off the highest level of a wedding cake, drove over 2 hours across a dark Louisiana swamp called The Atchafalaya Basin to a small Cajun nursing home where the residents lined the dorms cackling and fussing in their native French speech- so excited were they to determine a bride and groom in full wedding regalia, surely not your everyday vision in a nursing home.

We became the corner into his grandmother’s room. She was sitting there in her wheelchair, clutching her rosary beads, head bent in prayer, when she looked up and burst into tears of shock and surprise at the site of her adored grandson as a bridegroom. He knelt on the storey and laid his head in her lap while she made the sign of the cross over him and said over and over again, “My Jimmy, my Jimmy, you construct marry dat daughter? You construct marry dat daughter? ”

That scene is burned indelibly in both my heart and my psyche. He knew that she sat in that wheelchair all day was of the view that she had been forgotten.

And the “Peace that outshines all understanding” enveloped me fully and I knew right then and there that I had chosen well.

So I stood there in that doorway and I thanked our God for the endowment of this Great Man, who to the naked eye still looked so much like a boy. And I thanked Our Heavenly Father for whatever rare sliver of wise or insight on my own part gave me such a bold confidence as to pursue him. After the bles, we turned around and drove the 2 hours back to Baton Rouge, packed our vehicle with our wedding endowments and left for Little Rock that night- because my husband was in the restaurant business and had to work the next day.

There are hundreds more narratives like that. Anecdotes that exemplify the specific characteristics of this boy, his unique leadership style, hilarious tales about his unorthodox approach to developing people, both employees and his own offspring.

Early on in our wedlock, I took a bible analyze where I was introduced to the concept of tithing. Apparently, unbeknownst to us newlyweds, God had issued a mandate, expecting us to give away 10% of our income! All the young spouses were encouraged to discuss this with their husbands that very evening. Well I wasn’t worried one bit. I knew we were “off the hook, ” as my husband was a very frugal human who would never agree to such an outlandish petition, even if it did come straight from The Lord.

But I moved ahead and told him about it that night and amazingly and enthusiastically he said, “you know what- I’m in! Perfectly! Set up an solely separate bank account and we’ll call it’ The Tithe Account.’ Slice 10% off the top of everything I make from here on out and deposit it in there and we will give everything there is away! ”

But it was the way he made it away that was noteworthy. Of course The Church received from us, but Jimmy very quietly behind the scenes paid his employee’s doctor bills, he paid his cooks’ children’s hospital bills, he paid their immigration fees to reunite them with their families. He committed people cars so they could get to work, built various orphans’ tuition payments and helped other people get back on their feet after a personal life disaster. But it was always very low-key. For him, Christian charity was quiet, low key and personal, which is why you never saw us at fancy charity galas. But I must allow for the fact that he also only didn’t like to wear a tux…

Recently, I caught wind of the fact that a few of our youngest son’s friends were razzing him about how many kids we had in our household- saying surely he, being number 5, must have been an “accident.” It was all in good fun. I think they just rationally discovered it hard to believe in this day and age people would intentionally have 5 children. I’m producing with this to try in some way, if at all possible, to represent this boy as a father…

One day when we lived in Phoenix, he came to me and said, “I necessity TO TALK TO YOU. We are missing person! ”

I looked across the playroom at a sea of children’s chiefs. Our tweenage daughter’s 13 and 10 and our 5-year-old daughter and 2-year-old son and said, “1- 2-3-4! No HONEY, everyone is present and been taken into consideration! ”

He said, “That’s not what I mean! I’m talking about when I look over my shoulder as I’m backing our van out of the driveway for mass and I watch all those little faces looking back, a very strong seeming comes over me that there’s someone else who’s supposed to be back there, someone who isn’t here yet. I think God has a little soul he’s wanting to give us …. I’m trying to say our household is not yet complete.”

I don’t know how another woman strolls away from a conversation like that, but suffice it to say, I was pregnant pretty soon after. I didn’t find there is any need take a pregnancy test right away- I kept putting him off despite his badgering me. But on Thanksgiving Day I guess he couldn’t wait another minute. He busted into the bedroom that morning with a dark-brown suitcase from Walgreens, handed me the stick- pointed to the bathroom and said, “Go! ” I came back and handed him the positive ensue. He was beside himself with exuberance, because I guess he wanted to give Thanks on Thanksgiving day.

Some of you may see this as an example of how much we adore our youngest. And we do. He is undoubtedly cherished. But remember at this point we didn’t even know this kid. This tale is really a testimony of the unfathomable exultation the other 4 children brought their Dad every single minute of every single period. The human didn’t golf, play tennis, hunt, fish or go to Vegas. If he wasn’t operate, he was daddying. The word Daddy was a verb in our house.

I imagine I would like to conclude all of this by describing to you the last few days of my husband’s life.

Three periods before he was killed, last Thursday, I was at our daughter’s home babysitting our grandson where reference is swing by on his way to project. I let him in, he gingerly took the babe from my limbs and sat down in their sway chair cooing and stroking and adoration on him. I sat on the couch beside them smiling and tearing up and thinking ironically that the greatest tragedy of my life was that my mother( who venerated the very ground my husband trod upon) died the day after Our first grandchild was bear and would never be privy to the beautiful scene I was witnessing. This large big boy in a motorcycle jacket rocking the tiniest little replica of himself.

( And Yes- for those that appreciate irony, I was actually standing here guessing one week ago that was the Greatest Tragedy Of My Life .)

At that instant he snuggled closer to the newborn, profoundly inhaled his fragrance, seemed over at me, I’m not going to say he precisely hollered, but his eyes glazed over a little bit and he hoarsely whispered, “We got to do this 5 times! 5 times. Man- We were blessed! ”

A lot of you know my precious mother succumbed several months ago. I envision Jimmy and I both belief I would be doing better by now and a little further along in the sorrow process, but the very period after that, last Friday, my grief was so palpable to him that it seemed to be affecting my health. He sat on the edge of our bed, wiping the tears off my cheeks from a sad dreaming and said,

“I’m going to take the day off and we are going to stay in our jammie-lammies all day long. I know we have the babe today, so I’ll cart his swinging and a stack of bottles and diapers up to the media room and we can binge-watch our Netflix series until his little Mama picks him up! ”

And that’s just what we did. When our daughter arrived to pick up her newborn, he operated up to Panda Express and got us some dinner. We were standing in the kitchen building our plates and he asked me if I was feeling better. I answered frankly,

“A little bit. I merely feel so lost, orphaned, abandoned without my mother here. She was my everything until the day I gratified you. In reality, I shudder to envision how awful life would be for me if I ever were to lose you…”

My guy paused dramatically to give it all some thought and these are the poignant terms of wisdom and solace that he laid upon my nerve 😛 TAGEND

He said-

“Hey I hear that! You know I was reading lately that in those Viking cultures, oftentimes when a Viking warrior succumbed, they just buried his wife alive in the cave with him. I don’t know what those chics did in there all that time, but I would imagine they starved to death eventually! ”

I was quiet and pensive for a moment. Sensing my pause he added,

“We would definitely get you some Swedish fish and Milk Duds and Coca Cola in there to tie you over for awhile…”

He definitely had a quirky sense of humor, but honestly I don’t think he ever wanted to face life OR death without me. We were one of those pairs joined at the hip.

In the early days of our wedding when he worked 90 hours a week, I took care of every aspect of their own lives that didn’t involve the actual working of a restaurant. I selected his outfit for the working day, coordinated his necktie, laid out his underwear, brought him his coffee and ran a beading of toothpaste in a straight line down the bristles of his toothbrush while he was in the shower.

But somewhere along the line, I don’t know, maybe after the 5 children or after he mellowed a little bit, all the tables turned.

Somewhere along the liner his poor guy became exclusively responsible for 😛 TAGEND

-Turning on our tv …. I have no understanding how our remote control works.
-Keeping trail of all of our prescriptions, what I’m allergic to, how many migraine pills I had taken and when I could take another.
-He maintained gas in my car, air in my tires and something that has to do with oil.
-Almost every night he brought me home a key lime pie, or a slice of chocolate cake, unless I was on a strict diet in which suit this is the only way brought a receptacle of sour balls.
-He depicted my bath in the morning after he made my coffee, but before he woke me up.
-And retained me supplied in those cheater-reader glass. He was so proud he never paid for them. He got them from from the lost and found at the restaurants.

Saturday night, the night before he was killed I said, “Im congested, I can’t breathe through my nose, ” he said, “if I leave right now I can get to Walgreens before they close.”

When he got home he unpackaged the bottle of Afrin, but the main thing is that he stood there handing me the spraying and worrying aloud that maybe he should throw out the’ child proof cap’ because he didn’t reckon I’d ever be able to get it open the following week when he was away on business in Kansas City.

I assured him it was fine- don’t expresses concern about it. As usual, He was right. The very next nighttime after they told me what had happened to my Hero, I sobbed and hollered until I couldn’t breathe. Of course I immediately get congested. And when I reached for that bottle of Afrin from the nighttime before I couldn’t get the lid off.

I guess the good news is that so many have offered to help me, I may start a sign up sheet for people who want to volunteer to do some of these things.

I recognize a lot of you younger people out there that I know looked up to my husband as a kind’ve pseudo-father figure. You may not imagine I know about each and every one of you because of his reserved public persona, but believes me, he would come home and tell me and tell me and tell me about you. I know he was your role model and your mentor. Believe me when I tell you how much pleasure it brought him as he witnessed you moving along your upward trajectories through our corporation or even on to other success. So many of you were constantly checking back in with him later on your advance. Astoundingly, a few of you have written to tell me he actually turned your life around for the better where reference is burnt you!

Each one of you mattered to him more than you’ll ever know. Being a part of your lives meant the world to him.

And to his mother, “Mimi, ” I want you to know that sometimes he would look over at something I said or did or merely the route that I handled a situation and say, “I married my mother! ” But it was always and only when I had behaved in such a way that he found especially beautiful. He always told me you were a “Saint” and the sweetest female on the face of the earth. I am so so sorry for your pain in losing him. I hope it gives you some measure of convenience to know he desired and cherished all you did for him his entire life.

To our own five children, I would say this: if Daddy had any faults it might have been that he took care of us too well … But what a legacy he left behind in y’all. Each of you is beautiful and smart and nice. But like your daddy, you’re so much more than nice. You are good. Partly because you inherited it and partly because you grown up basking in his darknes as he demonstrated everything he considered to be a teachable moment.

And didn’t he merely consider everything to be a teachable moment?

So we will link arms and marshall this army forward without our General. But He left us with one heck of a blueprint. And, Who cares if we don’t has been able to threw air in the tires, you know what? if we can’t figure out how to get the air in, we can simply buy new tires, I think they sell new ones that come with air. And if we don’t has been able to replicate Dad’s extravagant Christmas and Thanksgiving dinners, we can just ordering pizzas.

Because I believe what Daddy did leave us is so much more important. Buried deep in your DNA and life experience is a mixture of strength, resiliency and a strong stubborn Cajun survival streak that they are able never be denied.

One last final thought- my honey and I desired to sing to each other. We adoration Classic Rock and the Motown Sound. One of our favorite artists through the years was Gladys Knight. Besides the chant that we played in the video last night,( My Life Story) she sings another hymn we both adored. The only problem is every time he would serenade me with this particular song, I would burst into tears. Cue the floodworks of sobbing and tears. Every. single. time.

So much so that I had no choice but to issue a Song Ban forbidding him from singing it. Which honestly he thought was a little hilarious. He would get all high and mighty and say “Tiny Red – you can’t merely Willy-Nilly BAN a sung! ”

But because it upset me so much he ultimately promised me he would never sing it again.

And I’ll never sing it either….”Because Neither One Of Us Wants To Be The First To Say Goodbye”

Farewell my adoration- good-bye…

Editor’s note: The crash is still under investigation but appears to be negligent homicide on the part of the elderly motorist of the SUV. Please join us in praying for Leslie and the Blanchard family.

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Why the Hell Is Hope Hicks Getting Off Easy?

Kid stuck macaroni up his nose…dad had to get it out.